Happy Thursday fighters,
I know this post comes at a random time, but I had such a hello life moment this morning, I had to share it with you all.
I was making my coffee this morning when I realized that my one tablespoon measuring spoon I use to measure my exact one table spoon of coffee creamer each morning was gone.
If you guys remember, in my post about taking myself out for breakfast last month, I wrote about how I’ve transitioned coffee creamer back into my life since I started recovery two years ago.
First, I started with sugar free coffee creamer and measured a tiny teaspoon of it. Then I moved to fat free creamer and used a tiny teaspoon to measure. Then I moved to one tablespoon of fat free creamer and for the past six months I worked my way up to using a tablespoon of real kind, full everything, creamer.
On weekends, I used to let myself not measure it out because it was a weekend and I wanted that freedom.
I knew I wanted to eventually stop measuring my coffee creamer, but I didn’t know when or how I would stop.
So this morning, when my measuring spoon was magically gone, I just had this innate feeling this was the time.
In the past few days, I’ve done a huge spring cleaning of my house and I honestly don’t remember touching the one tablespoon measuring spoon, but somehow, I believe it was meant to find its way out of my home. (And if I do ever happen to find it, I will make sure to throw it away.)
I thought to myself, ok Shira, you can just go buy a new one tablespoon measuring spoon tomorrow and just not have coffee today.
Then I thought, or, you can just not measure it today, have it, and then buy a new measuring tool tomorrow.
And then I thought, or, this is a sign that the time has come to ditch measuring your coffee creamer.
So here, I am, about 10 minutes after finishing my coffee with creamer that I did not measure, and I feel so free and victorious that I had to share it with you all.
I don’t feel guilty-I feel a little nervous, yes, but not guilty.
Ed does not win today and forever more, in terms of coffee creamer, he’ll never win again.
I’m not ashamed to say it took me two years to stop measuring my coffee creamer.
And I’m not ashamed it took my measuring spoon miraculously disappearing out of my house to make me stop measuring it.
I’m proud I never gave up my vision that I one day, wanted to break that food rule forever.
And today I did that.
On another note, all 5 of my brothers and sisters are on their way to Washington today from California to see my new home and have a late celebration for celebrating two years without a scale.
It’s kind of crazy how things happen to work together in that way.
My family is coming to celebrate Hello Life with me on the same day that my coffee creamer measuring spoon disappears.
Now, when my little brothers have hot chocolate tomorrow morning and I have coffee, they won’t have to see me measuring anything in front of them.
The thought of that alone almost makes me cry I’m so excited to show them that.
Good bye one tablespoon measuring device thing that I will not repurchase and throw away if you ever do somehow show up again.