Happy Monday everyone,
Today wasn’t the most mindful day in terms of eating , but in every other aspect it was and I will quickly tell you why.
1. For the first time in three years, I bought an old fear food of mine at the market and ate it.
I won’t say what it was because I don’t want to trigger anyone. But just know that to people without eating disorders, this food is far from a fear food, but to me it was. And I got it and ate it and loved every bite-even if Ed told me not to.
2. I paid my first medical bill here in Washington.
3. I killed it at work. (Killed it meaning I did a really good job).
Over all, I was a superstar today and so that’s the word for the day.
I think of the movie Superstar when the main character stops and puts her hands in the air and says “Superstarrrrr.”
I don’t mean superstar in the sense that I stole the show or spotlight. I mean it in the sense that I just was my own superstar because I didn’t let Ed ruin my day or take my light from me today even though it would be easy to do.
I sit here after writing a really great story for work tomorrow imagining me like that girl in the movie ( I think her name is Mary).
I didn’t let Ed ruin my day. I didn’t let food ruin my day. And I actually sit here really proud of myself for the things I did right today.
Maybe it’s not a big deal to anyone else, but to me, to be proud of the few things I did right today instead of spend energy being upset over the few things I didn’t do right is pretty superstar like.
That girl in the Superstar movie was always messing up, yet she always knew she was a superstar. She always reminded herself of it too.
So here I go reminding myself and the rest of us lifers that we deserve to give ourselves some superstar credit when credit is due.
I know that each of us can think of one thing we did right today, making us all superstars if we can just pat ourselves on the back for it for just a moment.
May all of our superstar lights shine so damn bright against all our Ed’s they are blinded by it for the rest of the night.