So today was the first day in a while that I was able to sleep in past 6 a.m.
When I woke up at 10:30, the first thing that went through my mind was that by the time I got ready it would be close enough to lunch time to just skim over breakfast as a whole.
I won’t lie-I thought about it. I actually went ahead with that plan and got ready. But when I was done and drinking my coffee, I just knew that by skipping a meal, it sabotages the whole idea of being mindful and it’s against my recovery.
And to not have breakfast, would actually contribute to the Ed chaos that has just started to decrease in the past week since deciding to be more mindful.
So I stuck to what I knew. I ate the breakfast.
And one hour later when it was almost time for me to go to work, I ate lunch-even though it wasn’t the greatest timing.
Why? Because I stuck to what I knew.
I even had a piece of a cinnamon roll at work tonight because someone had made it from scratch. I know how much satisfaction it used to bring me to see people enjoy something I cooked or baked, so I had a piece of it.
I stuck to what I knew: eating it would taste good for me and make the person who made it feel good. So I did it. And it was amazing.
Sometimes the best ways to honor ourselves in any struggle or fight is to simply stick to what we know-and that sounds like a simple task, but it’s not.
It’s not easy to learn these new behaviors in the first place.
For a long time, what I knew was how to not eat. Now I know what to eat and I know that it works for me.
There was a time where I would have looked at today as a semi-failure.
“Oh Shira, you had to listen to your meal plan. Why can’t you just be “normal” and eat whatever and whenever you want like everyone else?”.
That’s how I would have judged myself.
But I don’t see it from that viewpoint today. Today was not a failure. It was a major success.
It takes a lot of strength and willpower to find out what works for us in life–it takes a lot of experiences and a lot of work.
And it takes even more strength to follow what we know works for us when every single force is telling us to take the easier way out.
So today I stuck to what I know. Go me.
I actually had a fighter post something today in the Hello Life Fighter Support group saying that she had to listen to her alarm clock today to remind her when to eat. Go her, go her, go her.
We don’t always need to be the big heroes or do something drastic to be proud of ourselves. Sometimes sticking to what we know is a big enough deal as is.