I don’t know what it was about today, but after a day like I had yesterday, someone somewhere must have known I needed a little extra support today, and not only was I lucky enough to receive it, I was overflowed with it.
From private e-mails, to comments, to tweet messages and to Facebook messages, and a special phone call from my mom, there was a beautiful person sending me a positive and inspiring message at the end of every media outlet today.
Some gave me words of encouragement.
Others told me how this blog has touched their lives.
One girl even told me this blog has saved her life.
But what no one knew, is that deep down, getting everyone’s support, is what lifted my spirits back up from my hard day yesterday and brought them into the place of hope that they are now.
Because of your love and support, I had a good day in recovery today.
I didn’t have a good day because I worked out (because again, I didn’t workout today yet again).
I didn’t have a good day because I didn’t think about calories in my food (because I most definitley did do that).
And I didn’t have a good day because my newest story for my university newspaper ran on the front cover today.
I had a good day because something so much stronger, bigger, and more fulfilling than Ed could ever make me, surrounded me all day and all night; and that was the support from all of you.
A year ago, I was the girl who would have said that I could handle everything on my own. I was the one who never needed help. I was the one who helped everyone else.
And even though I still tend to feel that I am expected to be this super hero all the time, I am no longer afraid to say that I cannot do this alone.
I cannot do recovery alone, and I don’t want to do it alone.
I am not afraid to admit that it is because of other people that I made it through today with a sound and hopeful mind.
Ed was the one who was afraid of other people, not me.
And now, I get to embrace the love and support I was missing out on for so long when I was letting Ed rule our lives.
This blog is truly no longer only my journey, but the journey of an entire community leaning, encouraging and supporting one another.
Thank you for being the reason I sit here tonight with raised and hopeful spirits.
Hello to the beautiful souls who have made today’s recovery a gift and hello life.