That is what I kept having to tell myself today, and am still telling myself right now as I write this.
Sometimes “I will” is all you can say. and it’s all you can do.
Today, I had many “I will” statements to myself.
When I woke up stressed out because I had so much work to do and therefore had to cancel going to the gym I had to literally sit, take a deep breath and tell myself, “I will be OK. I won’t workout today, and I will be OK.”
There got to be a point in my day where I was so overwhelmed, the only thing I could tell myself was “I will, I will, I will.” It wasn’t even followed by anything, because today was so chaotic with life being life, that I couldn’t even put in that next word.
I just knew that somehow, someway, I will.
And now that I am sitting here after not having my greatest day in recovery in terms of eating, because when I am stressed out, my hunger cues are the first thing to go, I sit here and remind myself of the saying I have been telling myself all day.
I will have this last meal.
I will get done what I need to get done.
I will take tonight one minute at a time if I have to.
I will put one foot in front of the other and move forward.
I will let myself cry again if I need to, and then,
I will move on.
I will carry my head high into tomorrow, even though I know I’ve had better days in recovery.
I will make tomorrow better.
Whatever your “I will” statement is for today, I hope it brings you hope, strength and courage as mine have to me.
Mini cry sessions and all, I will get past today and I will give tomorrow all I’ve got.
If Ed can’t be the one to comfort me today, than who will?