Recovery was good today for two reasons:
1. Eating was easier today, but because I played it safe, which isn’t bad, because safe means the meal plan, but it doesn’t mean that I broke any food rules either.
But I actually think this is OK and I think E would think this is OK too.
We step outside our comfort zones in recovery, just to step into a land of the unknown, and sometimes, we have to settle in over there before we go and step into the next unknown land.
So that’s what I did today, I was settling in this first unknown land from breaking two food rules earlier this week.
2. The second reason recovery was good today was because I was part of something greater than myself and greater than Ed.
If you remember, I just had a huge story published yesterday for my university newspaper (yes, the one I not so mildly freaked out about over 3 grammatical errors), about undocumented immigrants in California soon being able to get a drivers license, once the governor signed the bill into law.
Well, today at 9:45 a.m., the bill was signed and it was officially made into law.
I know that I am not the one who made this law happen or anything even remotely close to that, but I felt like I was part of it because through interviewing so many undocumented people for my last story, I had been able to get to know a few of the people who it will affect.
It felt really good to be a part of this new law; and that my story gave them a chance to express their voices about it.
I know this doesn’t necessarily have to do with eating disorder recovery, but in a way, it kind of does, because when you feel like you are a part of something bigger than yourself, it means you realize that your a part of something bigger and better than your eating disorder too, and that’s what today was for me.
Hello to being a part of something bigger than our Ed’s, and hello life.