“Surrender to what is. Let go of what was.
Have faith in what will be.” -Sonia Ricotti
“Have faith in what will be”-this has really gotten me through my day today.
At the end of the day, I don’t feel like sitting here and writing about the stresses or anxieties that I’ve feeling lately-because I have realized that is just life.
Life is stressful sometimes and it can be anxiety filled sometimes, and it can be unplanned sometimes and it can be a bit out of control sometimes.
But what matters to me in this moment, isn’t really what is happening in the now, although being present in something I try to dedicate myself to often.
But right now, it works for me to have faith in what will be.
In the next few days, I will be starting school again.
I have already started my position as senior reporter for the school newspaper.
I will writing; I will be productive; I will be emerged into a world where my success is measured by the content I write, and the way I use my mind-not measured by my body or my food intake.
Being productive and being a reporter is not an Ed controlled world.
Ed has never been able to take away my passion for writing, or my strong desire to succeed in school, and after so much unpredictability this summer, I am really looking forward to seeing myself shine.
I shine when I write.
I shine when I am productive.
I shine when I have some stability and routine.
All those things are what will be in my future, and just knowing that, has made today a really good day.
I could have focused on Ed today.
I could have thought about the ice cream I ate last night, or the fact that I didn’t work out today-but why?
Why focus on those draining things, when life is about to throw me so many opportunities to shine?
I have faith in what will be. I envision me shining. Ed isn’t stopping me.