Good evening everyone,
Simply stated, today was a good day.
Now, let me tell you why.
Today was a good day because today, I didn’t let my eating disorder invade my precious time with my family.
Today was a good day because I spent quality time with my family.
I spent time with my family; just me, not Ed.
I look back on last years Father’s Day, and I only remember one thing: what I weighed that day, the amount of frosting I ate off the cookie cake I bought for my dad, and how sick and guilty I felt afterwards.
When I look back on today, I remember laughter, bonding time, delicious food shared with people who I love, and most importantly, I remember love.
Love was all around me today.
It was in the cards that my brothers and I wrote to my dad-
It was in the food that my step-mom made-
It was in the hugs my brothers gave me when I arrived-
And mostly, it was within me.
I loved myself today for being strong enough to leave my relationship with Ed, so I can create closer and more intimate relationships with the important people in my life, like my family, and myself.
I wasn’t part of an eating disorder today.
I was a part of love.
And therefore, by being a part of love, I was part of a more free life from this eating disorder that once tried to take away all forms of love and connection in my life.
Hello to being a part of love and freedom, and hello life.