I don’t really feel like writing today, so this post is going to be pretty short.
Today has been really hard.
I’ve taken lots of photos in different outfits, and different angles in the mirror, and I just hate what I see.
It’s been a really hard few days in terms of accepting my body of how it looks right now and its been even harder to try to not stop all of it.
But I haven’t.
I distracted myself today from my on going negative thoughts about my body and weight and food.
I actually cooked something that fits perfectly on my meal plan and that I feel good about eating, and I am happy I did that because that shows self care.
And then I spent a few hours just talking with my best friend.
Now I’ve looked down and I see that it’s already 5 pm, and I still ate on my meal plan today,and I made it through these rough hours.
Sometimes the best thing I can do is distract myself from Ed, and his vicious cycle of never ending thoughts about my body or about eating.
I am glad I was able to find healthy distractions today-I cooked and I spent time with my friend. I didn’t over exercise, or cook triggering foods that I could binge on.
I took good care of myself today, and I am proud of myself for doing that.
Today has been hard.
I have a feeling this whole week will be hard.
But I have a week filled with many healthy distractions such as summer school, work, friends and family, and I am thankful for those to distract me from Ed right now.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better, and I’ll be more accepting of my body.
But if not, then I will continue to care for myself and my body until I get to that point.
Hello to self care even on these hard days, hello to finding healthy distractions, and hello life.