Good afternoon everyone ,
Yesterday was truly one incredible day .
Despite me not wanting to initially go, I did go to my award ceremony yesterday where I was honored for being in the very top percent of my class.
During the ceremony, the host opened with this line, “The most rewarding part about being a journalist is being able to tell someone else’s story and truth.”
This line really resonated with me, and not just because exposing the truth is what I aspire to do in my hopeful career as a journalist, but because it summed up exactly what I am going through right now.
Every single day that I wake up and dedicate myself and my life to my recovery, and everyday that I write this blog documenting that commitment, is me telling my story.
Yes, the host was right when she said it’s most rewarding to tell someone else’s story.
But to me, I don’t think I can truly tell and understand other people’s story until I tell and understand my own.
This blog, this journey of one year without a scale, this road of recovery and my fight to freedom from Ed are all chapters that are making up my story; the story of me and how I came into choosing to be the fighter that I am today.
Some days I don’t even know if the chapters align and if my pages are in the right order .
Some days I feel Ed tries to take the pen away from me so he can write this story instead of me .
But at the end of the day, I am the one writing my story and I’m the one telling it – my way.
I don’t know exactly how my story will go, but I do know that it will represent inner strength, commitment and self love.
Lastly, I do not know how long my story will be , but I know how it will end .
It will end with me living free of Ed and me loving myself for who I am. I know that it will end that way because I won’t stop writing until it gets to that point .
More than just telling my story to you all and even to myself, I am exposing my truths .
Nothing in the world, even Ed, can deny my truth .
For now, my truth is that I am on my way to being the strongest and most liberated person I know, and that I will fight for every ounce of it .
I love being able to share my story with so many beautiful people all around this world . You all are part of my story too and I thank you so much for that .
Above all, me telling my story and my truth everyday on this blog gives me the power to truthfully say “hello life.”