Good morning everyone,
The minute I woke up this morning, I whispered to myself, “today will be a good day.”
I have had a rough few days struggling and accepting the amount of food I’ve been eating and the way my body looks, but today is a new day and it’s a new week and I am ready to make it the best that it can be.
I will go to school today, I will go to work today, and I will be productive today, even with the discomfort I am feeling about my body.
I will do it because I want to.
I want to be happy today, I want to smile today and I want to thrive today.
Today will be a good day and this week will be a good week.
I have a feeling that something really great is about to come my way.
I am not sure what it is, but I know that if I let myself get sucked back into Ed, I will not be able to receive whatever great things come my way this week.
I am actually excited to give myself these self affirmations and I am excited to show Ed that I can and will continue to grow stronger, better, and wiser without him living inside me.
I want to forget about the food-forget about the calories-forget about the clothes and my body–the important thing is that it is Monday and it will be the greatest Monday I’ve had in a while because I am choosing to make it that way.
I don’t need Ed to tell me I deserve to be happy today because I am a number on a scale, and I don’t need Ed to tell me that I don’t deserve to be happy today because I do not know what I weigh or because I let myself eat.
All I need is me telling myself that not only is it OK to want to be happy today, but that I am capable of making that happen and I am deserving of it.
I am a winner, and I will be the winner of my own Monday. Me-not Ed.
I will make sure today will be a great day.
If I come across bumps, I will ride over them.
If I come across Ed, I will quiet him, and if I come across self doubt, I will remind myself that I am 98 days into recovery and that nothing can or will stop me from winning back my freedom from Ed now.
Hello to knowing that I will make today great, and hello life.