Good morning everyone,
This week, I have been struggling a lot with the idea that I am just “a girl in recovery for an eating disorder.” I have written about it, I have talked with E about it, and finally yesterday, I decided to just accept it and let it go.
Not long after I decided to just accept that fact and move on, I literally feel like I had an epiphany.
I was laying down in bed, and suddenly, out of no where, it just hit me-that I am not a girl in recovery for an eating disorder. I am not that at all. I am Shira Moskowitz, a 22 year old aspiring journalist with a love for life. The fact that I am in recovery for an eating disorder is indeed part of my life, but it is not who I am.
I have realized that I can still be dedicated to my recovery, and yet at the same time, be dedicated to being me, and not let my recovery define me.
My recovery is simply something that I am going through right now. It is a period in my life-yes, probably the hardest, most challenging and most difficult time period, but it just that-only a time period.
This period of recovery will one day pass, and I will not be known as the girl who beat Ed or who is living in recovery. I will be known for my strength, for my talent, for my love for my family-I will be known for who I am as a person, and the fact that I am a survivor from this eating disorder will be a part of what made me into that person, but it will not define me.
In the about me section of this blog, I introduced myself as : Shira Moskowitz, 22 years old, and that I am in recovery for an eating disorder.
I want to take a moment to reintroduce myself, as my perception has now changed.
My name is Shira Moskowitz and I am 22 years old. I love my family, I love to write, and I hope to be one of the world’s greatest journalists. I love to be outdoors, I love to shop, I love to read, and I love to laugh.
A few of my favorite things in life are chocolate, good movies, great company, family and friends. I am honest, loyal, hard working and determined to be the best person that I can be.
There are many things that have gotten me to the beautiful place in life that I am now, one of them being my fight to recover from an eating disorder. This fight is making me into the strongest person that I’ve ever met. This fight will open my eyes, my heart, and my mind, to things that I never would have seen before.
For right now, and for as long as it takes, I am dedicated to fighting every single minute of every single day for my recovery, so when I finally win-I can grab my title, wear it, and never look back. But there are also other things that I am dedicated to.
I am dedicated to being a sister, a daughter,a grand daughter, and a friend.
Being a fighter against my eating disorder is only one of my many traits-it is a strong trait, yet it does not define me.
There it is everyone, my official new introduction to who I am-and while I could write for pages, I will leave it at that.
I am so overwhelmed with joy that I was able to realize this last night.
My recovery is something I am going through, and that is it.
I am still Shira-I am still me, and I am going to start living my life as me, and not as “the girl in recovery for an eating disorder.”
Hello to loving every aspect of just being me, hello to knowing that nothing, not even recovery, can define me-and hello life.