If this is your first visit to my blog,let me start by saying that you should read the “about me” page before this post, so this entry makes sense.
Although this is my first documented post about my one year without a scale, I am already 7 days into it. I was talking with my therapist, and for our purposes for this blog, we will call her E. I was telling E about my idea for this blog and how documenting my journey of a year without a scale might be a cool idea and that I would make a final decision by Friday. When E asked me why I was going to wait until Friday, I really could not give her an answer. So world, here I am. I have officially made the commitment for be scale free for an entire 365 days and my documentation starts here.
The firs thing that I need to say is that I am going to be completely and utterly honest on this blog. There will be nothing that is sugar coated, nothing that is fake, and I cannot assure you that everything you read will be happy or positive, but I can promise you that it will be the truth.
So I am just going to dive right in. Today I feel horrible. I woke up with my entire body feeling sore all over. This happens to me every time i basically eat any amount of substantial calories. My entire stomach and chest feel like they have bruises every where. I have accounted this feeling to to0 much sodium intake the day before, but I am still not sure if that totally makes sense. If this has ever happened to anyone else out there in the world, I would love to know so I can see that I am not the only one.
For me, the biggest challenge of my day so far has been being able to be kind to myself and eat and drink properly when I feel this soreness every time I move. It’s like a constant reminder of the pizza, wine, cake and chocolate I ate last night-the results of having one glass of wine too many.
This is where this blog comes in. I know that I have two choices today. Choice one, which is to sit at home, forget about school and my boyfriend’s mom’s birthday and sit all day drinking only tea and coffee and obsessing over how huge I feel I have become in the past 7 days, or I can be proactive, write this blog ,focus on school and not let this eating disorder take over my life for yet another God damn day.
While choice one is by far the easiest choice above all, it would be letting my eating disorder win me over and on a day like today where I am celebrating a milestone,( one week of being scale free), I am not going to let that happen. So choice 2 it is.
I am not sure how I am going to get through today, I am not sure how many times I might cry or cringe when I walk past a mirror, but one thing is certain; I will get through it and I will wake up tomorrow and my life will go on past this uncomfortable body soreness and obsessive negative thinking. It will, it will, it will.
And in my weakest moments, like right now, where I can feel my tummy growling for food and I know I need to go eat lunch, I will remind myself of one thing: saying good bye to my scale means saying hello to a new life.
So I will end this first entry how I am going to end every single entry for the next 358 days, by saying this simple and yet very true statement: Hello life!
Hello Life: A Year Without A Scale 
Not that I have an eating disorder to compare my pain to yours except that I, unlike you just eat too darn much! But I’m thinking the all over soreness is the FLU! Because lord knows I’ve had my share if one too many wines, chocolate and pizza and I never woke up sore from it, only mad at myself.
Mama Elyssa aka your personal RN says take your temp.
Looking forward to sharing this journey with you. Thanks for being so open, honest and kind to yourself and others you will help!
Good job ! So proud of you, you are Truely amazing
The first word that springs to mind is BRAVE. You are so courageous to put your struggle out there for everyone to read despite potential judgement and negative responses. The second word is GENEROUS. You are sharing your feelings and insights for the benefit of those who read this blog. The third word is SMART. In writing this blog you are gathering a network of friends and admirers that will support you so you don’t have to go on this journey alone. The fourth word is BEAUTIFUL. That’s what you have always been to me, both inside and out.
Love from your other grandma.
Im blown away thank u mary ur a huge inspiration to me n ill love u always thank u for ur incredible supporr
Shira, I don’t think I could have said it any better than Mary did. I have always told you that when you would tackle this challenge when you were ready. You have developed many positive supports for yourself, which is so important. You are truly an amazing role model for so many others struggling with their own issues. You are so courageous to share your journey along the way. I am so proud of you Shira!! You know I am always here for you regardless of whatever it is or whenever it is. I love you!
Love, Auntie Norine
Shira, I don’t think I could have said it any better than Mary did. I have always told you that when you would tackle this challenge when you were ready. You have developed many positive supports for yourself, which is so important. You are truly an amazing role model for so many others struggling with their own issues. You are so courageous to share your journey along the way. I am so proud of you Shira!! You know I am always here for you regardless of whatever it is or whenever it is. I love you!
Love, Auntie Norine
im.so lucky to have such a great aunt whose as amazing as u. Ur support has been huge to me from the start thank u i love u
Thank you everyone for your amazing support I am truly speechless. Thank you for coming on this journey with me. I love you all and appreciate your support more than you will ever know. Thank you.
You are amazing and you are aeriunded by good people that will hold your hand and help you win ! You are a winner , great job motek. Usially the first day , the first week , the firat mobth are the hardest. After that you will be in cruise control and life will nothing but pure joy. Shabat shalom Buba , love you , your uncle.
Thank u ram ram i have the best family in the world love u!
Just randomly found this blog on a google search and I am also suffering from anorexia, trying for recovery without my scales. Best of luck to you!